God has been so amazing to me this year. January 1, 2008 was a day I waited for. I could not wait for 2007 to end. It was full of 6 months hard months of watching Dad battle cancer. It wasn't terrifying nor was it a devastating 6 months. There was no doubt we were protected by God's loving arms. There were times of fear but we never felt afraid. Dad allowed the Holy Spirit to pour out of him those last few days in the hospital. It would have been a big challenge to not recognize this was God's call and there was not a doctor or otherwise that cold interfere. I accepted Dad's death based on my faith that God, my father, was in control. What I was not prepared for was the months ahead. Understanding the great loss my mother had to endure, realizing the loss my daughter were to endure during their last year of high school. Feeling an empty pit in my gut when I think to call him or see his face flash in my thoughts. We knew the glory belonged to God and I focused on God's will. I wanted so bad for the year to end so I could start fresh. I was ready with BIG expectations. God delivered far more than I expected.
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